Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Pre-Return Jitters

I leave in less than 16 days. For those of you on the metric system that's two weeks and two days. TWO WEEKS AND TWO DAYS. Time has never, ever gone this fast. I find it unfair that the one year I want to go slower than a snail's pace went by in two seconds. Wasn't it September, like, yesterday?

I volunteer with AFS in the Bay Area frequently. I go to most of the orientations. Last year, I was helping at the Pre-Return Orientation. They talked a lot about getting gifts and packing and saying goodbye. I remember walking up to my mom and saying something along the lines of, "I haven't even left for Egypt yet, and this orientation is making me sad to leave Egypt." Poor, naive, childish Corie. Thinking about leaving Egypt when I'm actually going to leave Egypt is so. much. worse.

I'm a really emotional person. I hear stories from other exchange students and they'll say something like, "Oh, I rarely cry but when [insert event that happened while abroad] I cried my eyes out." And I just sit there and laugh because I cry at everything.

People shouldn't even really take my crying easily because Disney's Brave made me cry. I ate a really good sandwich the other day and I almost cried. One day I was thinking about how once people thought the Earth was flat and I fell into a fit of uncontrollable sobbing.

I hope you all understand that I'm kidding. I don't cry that often. Still, I am emotional. So, times like this when I have to leave my second home and my second family it's hard. Knowing the best year of my life is over, is hard.

Another big thing on my mind is going back. For me leaving Egypt and going back to the US are two different things for me. Leaving Egypt will be sad, but for me going back to the US is the harder of the two for me.

Going back to the US terrifies me. If it weren't for my family and dogs, I wouldn't want to go back. I love my friends and my community and everything, but Egypt.

All of my friends and the people I go to school with essentially go through the same things. We all have different experiences, but we all know what elementary school is like, we all went through the hell of middle school, we're all worried about high school and college, but I don't know anyone my age that has gone abroad.

I'm really scared my friends and family aren't going to understand. This year has been amazing and I feel like no one is going to get that.

I'm also scared everyone will get sick of me talking about Egypt after like a week. "Okay, Corie, we get it Egypt is amazing. Shut up."

 I'm also not really looking forward to answering the same four questions over and over. And packing without my mother is going to be a nightmare and I'm glad I bought all the souvenirs and saying goodbye will be hard and I still need to eat pigeon and


I got this from reddit.

If my feelings bored you, sorry. This is just a post I felt needed to be posted because as I said, I only have a short time left.

Nonetheless, I hope you enjoyed this post. I mean, it has a Mean Girls GIF so how could you not enjoy it.

Learn something today.

Byeeeeee

Corie.

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